just words

just as i threatened, we haven't been taking pictures. however, my month of working full time is now over, and we've all survived. hannah's suffered the most, as her schedule is different every day and she really needs consistency and her own bed in which to nap. but like i said, we're all here.

Grandma Jan was unable to come, as her sister Jean was just last week diagnosed with lung cancer. I dont' believe they've settled on a treatment plan yet, our prayers are with them. Dad and Bunny didn't either, because of their schedule. So, that's how we've got all this painting done. Hannah's room is finally decorated, green again, and I love it! Except the crib doesn't match at all, so i'll be glad when she gets in a big girl bed.

speaking of big girl, she really is. she walks about 50% of the time now, kind of like a zombie. she toddles (that's why they call it that) with her hands straight out in front of her, then slowly loses her balances, rocks back and forth, then plops on her butt. but she just learned to turn around backwards to go down a step or two. she alway sleeps through the night now, thank God. that took long enough! and my perfect little eater is no more. for i while i was really frustrated that she'd only eat cheerios and goldfish (any other granola people, please hold the gasps of horror that i feed her cheerios and goldfish. at least it's not the cream cheese danish i saw another baby eating in starbucks, seriously) but i finally realized she just wants to feed herself. now, if i want to feed her with a spoon, i have to put something on her plate she can eat on her own, then sneak the spoon in with her own bites. it's pretty funny, actually. i never thought i'd pacify my children with food, i fact i was sure i wouldn't, but once again, i take back my criticisms of mothers in that respect. we do draw the line somewhere, however.

also, we've been going round and round with the working thing. i tell you what, these decisions are harder than i once thought. i take back all my criticisms of working mothers, as well. if i just wanted to work so i could afford the marc jacobs bag i saw in tj max for 50% offf (still $179, mind you), then it wouldn't be so hard. (i would love aforementioned bag, by the way. it was green. i love green. and my birthday is coming up. . . :-) but we're talking about every day living expenses which are really expensive. and attaining financial freedom before we're retirement age. we don't know what to do, what is best for our family, now and in the long run. i will probably keep on babysitting, though i could make more money somewhere else, because i want to be with hannah. i think i'm going to try to keep someone at our house, though. if anyone's done that, give me your opinion, pros and cons.

we're sort of getting into a sunday school class at our church. but last week, we did a terrible terrible thing. we are always late because i try to get hannah to take a nap before we go, and we have to leave at 9.15, so by the time we got there and got hannah settled in the nursery, we were more than 20 minutes late. it's only a 45 min class, then we have a fifteen minute break before the service. in jest, i suggested we go get coffee. my husband, being the, uh, free spirited preson that he is, thought this was a grand plan, so there we went. oh, i felt so guilty, eternal damnation. i am not a rule breaker. bob jones didn't even bother me. and here we were, using the nursery for free babysitting and playing hooky from sunday school. oh my. i didnt' even enjoy my coffee! anyways, i hope that's humorous to those of you who know us well.